So my frustrated post yesterday was upsetting to some family. And to any one else who found it disturbing let me be clear: I'm not bashing my kid. I love him to itty bitty pieces...like Tiny Toons Elvira style love. OK just googled it and her name is ELMYRA, oops. Anyway its still the same obsessive, sometimes a little too rough, eat him up because he's just so cute, I kinda want to hurt him (but I won't) kind of love. Make sense? Is EVERYONE disturbed now? My work here is done.
AAAnyway... I wasn't putting him down yesterday, I was venting some frustration. And I'm not worried about him one day reading because it's a real part of raising him. Being a mom is not all butterflies and rainbows. Also... he napped for 3 hours after those videos were taken so part of his frustration was him being tired. And, I hope you see that whenever I post something like that I wrap it all up with a little moral. Yesterdays moral came from the book quote I mentioned. "Thank you for being the you that you are." Reading that reminded me what a wonderful kid Oliver is and how thankful I am for every little part of his personality even when it drives me crazy, and reading that calmed me down and reminded me to just enjoy the ride with him. And I know he is a genius and will get there. It's not like I'm worried he won't speak, I just get a little frustrated because I am his mom and know what amazing things he is capable of.
Today was a MUCH better day for both Oliver and I. He was in a very good and helpful mood all day, and I was well rested and enjoying all the love he had to give me. It was a great day for reflecting all my "Thankfuls" in preparation for tomorrow.
1. First and foremost I am thankful for my perfect children. I am so thankful for their health. For their perfect eyes, and noses and mouths. Their perfect lungs and bronchioles and alveoli. Their perfect hearts- atria, ventricles, valves. For their kidneys, for their livers, for their spleens and duodenums. Every little blood vessel, every single nerve, every gland doing its job, every synapse firing its fire. I am thankful for every messy poop diaper and soaking pee diaper because it means everything is functioning in just the right way. When you're pregnant you think: OH THIS TAKES TOO LONG! But really...can you believe 9 months is what it takes to build a human being from scratch!? Considering the millions, billions, trillions, zillions of little itty bitty part in those itty bitty bodies, that they are born with all those parts working just right is a blessing I am so very thankful for. Especially knowing there are others who didn't fare the same. Still blessed, perfect in a different way, but with maybe a few more tears and hard days.
2. I am thankful for two easy conceptions for my two healthy pregnancies. Apparently I have PCOS, but I'm not sure how confident that diagnosis was, especially two pregnancies later. I thought I'd have a hard time, have to try a while, maybe need some treatments...maybe not be able to. I am very thankful I was very wrong.
3. I am thankful I get to be a stay at home mom. It's really hard sometimes. It's emotionally, mentally, and physically challenging on top of being financially restricing. But both Nate and I are happy with our choice. Like Nate has said, he never thought of himself as old fashioned and that this would be our lifestyle, but he can't imagine me working now and our children in daycare. And I am certaintly greatful he feels that way, especially with how hard that means he has to work to keep things that way.
4. I am very thankful for my parents. Each of them can drive me B-A-N-A-N-A-S but call me a glutton for punishment I love being able to be with them. I'm so greatful they don't mind the1.5+ ride to come see us, and that they do it so often. I am so happy when I see how much they love their granchildren. And so happy they get to spend so much time with them. And all the support they have given us helps make our lifestyle doable. I remember telling Nate I wanted to wait on getting engaged until we didn't have my parents giving us money for anything anymore. Well we are now married homeowners with two children and I will take a few bucks whenever they are offered! Thanks mom and dad!
****There is a lot more I am thankful for but this post has been interupted...I have to go be a mom and wash puke out of PJ's and sheets.....still thankful though, still thankfull****
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